Basically, yes, it is all about me. That is what this blog is intended for. For me to write, and write and write and write and post silly photos and phots I love and thoughts I have and ideas that come to me and what ever else takes my fancy. So if you are reading this and you are not me, then beware! There will be raw and unadulterated bits of my soul in here and rather than be offended by them, perhaps you could feel honoured that you are one of the few people who gets to know the real spark that conceived me, that is me, that allows me to live and breath in this rather pudgy human form.
Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water
After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.
To echo that are these words from a current multimillion dollar empire:
Just Do It
See - the sooner we realize that nothing is new, the sooner we will realize that all the answers are available to us (well, at least to those of us who know a good Buddhist or have Google!).
In my own space, feeling my own feelings, thinking my own thoughts, when I want to think them. Not ruled by the whimsy of small children, the nag of chores left undone or the press of a time-driven world. I ache to sit, to contemplate, to dwell, to engage my tortoise mind and to be creative.
I long to be self-less to myself (is that selfish, or just kind?).
Well, I have been hiding myself away in the ether for a bit and now I am (slowly) getting the hang of this new world, I guess the only thing left is to be brave about it ;)
So it is at this point I GO PUBLIC. not only am I baring my soul to myself, but to you dear reader as well. So here it is, the journal to the heart of me!
So everything from here on will be LESS. less chocolate missing from my refrigerator, less chores that have gone undone, less empty photostream on Flickr, less children awake - less often etc, etc, etc. Stay tuned as the theme of my blogs for a while is going to be fighting this scarcity mindset at it's own game - in the literal meaning of the words - I COULDN'T CARE LESS!
Along with being less random I am also trying to be a little less lazy. For instance, when I sweep the dirt off the floor into a little pile in the corner of the kitchen, I will then pick it up in the dust pan and put it in the bin - as opposed to just leaving it there to pick up later (which I always do).
I am very aware that if I don't do something properly the first time it takes up a lot of my head space to think of it again, and again, and again! Mum was right again hey - "Do it right the first time and then you wont have to keep going back until you get it right/done", truley words of wisdom from the wise!
There was, of course, an ulterior motive for such a trek into the hinterland. conveniently, Mum had an appointment there so I offered at once to chaperon her, as I am well aware of how intriguing some of that town’s little boutiques are and how in desperate need of a funky new handbag I am!
It was not all languishing in coffee shops and browsing accessories though. We had new lunch boxes to trial and two new parks to explore! Anouk and Oscar were in kid heaven at Mary Cairnscross park. Being school holidays and all there were plenty of little people to make friends with and a wonderful little playground to defy gravity from. The 5 or 6 minutes Anouk spent whirling around on the roundabout was enough to send me in the other direction to look for likely candidates for my photographic eye. I’m afraid just watching a swing these days makes me a little giddy – let alone swinging on one. And we wont even mention what horrors the monkey bars bring to mind. I’m sure I used to be so light and agile, where did the nimble, coördinated spring chicken I used to be go? Flew the coop when the kids made too much noise I expect!
I got so much enjoyment out of taking these few photos – maybe it was because, for a change, my subject was not twirling all over the viewfinder hiding their best side with a hat!
I even found a new setting on my camera that I explored. It gives a grainy B&W film look, which looked pretty amazing on the screen of the camera, but quite a few of the shots I thought were going to be crackers turned out a LOT grainier than they initially looked. Check out the difference between this shot of the dead leaf and the one taken on the ‘film-look’ setting.
This is one of the better examples of the setting!
Well, we had a great time exploring the town and its parks, but alas, no handbag! It was a lovely day out none the less and diverted the children’s attention from the fact that their Daddio was away from home once again. Nothing like a trip to a foreign park to keep your mind occupies – whether you are two, five or ….. 35!