Basically, yes, it is all about me. That is what this blog is intended for. For me to write, and write and write and write and post silly photos and phots I love and thoughts I have and ideas that come to me and what ever else takes my fancy. So if you are reading this and you are not me, then beware! There will be raw and unadulterated bits of my soul in here and rather than be offended by them, perhaps you could feel honoured that you are one of the few people who gets to know the real spark that conceived me, that is me, that allows me to live and breath in this rather pudgy human form.
An Epiphany and some Good Timing
I had an epiphany a month or so ago (sometime just after my last post) and I realized that even though it seemed like I hadn't been doing very much, I actually had - and an awful lot of it was for other people. So I took a little time out, said 'no' a bit, had a few long hot baths, cleaned out a cupboard or two (or seven) and took stock of life. And you know what, I really feel better for it. My routine didn't change too much. The regular stuff went on each day, I just took away some of the restrictions I placed on myself about what I should be doing at any one time and why.
I realised that I have given the last six and a half years of my life almost wholly to other people (mostly little people) and it really was okay to do a couple of things for myself, even if they didn't seem like things that would 'get me ahead', 'raise my profile' or 'advance my (non-existent) career'. Although as an adult I logically know that houses take a long time to renovate, books take a long time to write and children take their whole lives to learn, I think I really believed that if I didn't get started on all of those things immediately I got the chance then they wouldn't possibly ever come to fruition.
I do firmly believe there is a time for everything and if something 'just doesn't feel right' then it probably isn't. 'Giving myself a break', in every sense of the word, has really allowed me to put things into perspective and made me appreciate that I do understand the important things in life and among other things, I am important, and when the time is right those other things will become priorities.
Unfortunately I am yet to find anyone who thinks finding balance in family life is easy, but if they are out there somewhere I'd be happy to share a drink and a good long natter with them if they have time (which of course they would, wouldn't they??).
I realised that I have given the last six and a half years of my life almost wholly to other people (mostly little people) and it really was okay to do a couple of things for myself, even if they didn't seem like things that would 'get me ahead', 'raise my profile' or 'advance my (non-existent) career'. Although as an adult I logically know that houses take a long time to renovate, books take a long time to write and children take their whole lives to learn, I think I really believed that if I didn't get started on all of those things immediately I got the chance then they wouldn't possibly ever come to fruition.
I do firmly believe there is a time for everything and if something 'just doesn't feel right' then it probably isn't. 'Giving myself a break', in every sense of the word, has really allowed me to put things into perspective and made me appreciate that I do understand the important things in life and among other things, I am important, and when the time is right those other things will become priorities.
Unfortunately I am yet to find anyone who thinks finding balance in family life is easy, but if they are out there somewhere I'd be happy to share a drink and a good long natter with them if they have time (which of course they would, wouldn't they??).
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